orders by me that he is to do nothing else other than to deal with the traffic and find out what's going on, the rumors continue to come back to me, hey, i'm hearing this is about you. mayor, i know you don't want to hear it but i'm hearing this is about you. from that september 9 day, there was always that doubt in my mind. when we didn't get any response and we came to use and the traffic cones removed, no respond from the port, all the digging by the chief and my office and me finding out it was about me. you start to question your judgment. once we got to the end of that week, i was pretty convinced it was about me. i've also been the guy that's been saying, look, i don't feel like i was ever directly requested to endorse governor christie. it was a gradual courting. we have engaged. there was dialogue where people would tell me about, where, for example, we would start off with a litany of folks in describing who was now endorsing governor christie. then, i would be asked, hey, what do you think about that?